Today is my last day in the Edinburgh Study Centre and my last week in Scotland. The office is strangely quiet since Fraser left on Friday. In this silence, I am looking out of the window to the icy meadows just behind the university.
Huddled in my winter coat, I’ve trudged through these meadows and amid torrents of rain for two years now. I’ve had barbecues & picnics in the grass, relieved to see the sun for the first time in weeks. I’ve listened to beautiful busking and sketched strangers on park benches. But my favourite memory of the meadows is walking beneath the snowfall-like shedding of cherry blossom petals in spring.
It will be bitter sweet to leave this country. The thought of months, even years passing before I see these familiar streets again is daunting. I know that I am moving home to the warmth of Southern California and the comfort of family but it is difficult to welcome uncertainty into one’s life.
Despite all of that buzzing through my mind, for now, I am embracing this quiet moment and the beauty of the wind blowing through icy fields of familiar grass.
Goodbye for now & best wishes always,